i still miss sk!

after so long, i still miss sk though i get to see him almost every sat if i wan to.....
but feelings like this...just can't b helped!!!
i wanted to spend more time with him..but busy as he is.....he don't have enough time for himself..needless to say for me!
i miss him not because i don't get to see him often...i miss him because i miss the kind of connection we have for each other each time we met up.....
i no longer feel the urge to wan to sms him and ask him out.....be it cos i am understanding towards his busyness.... or i just can't b bother owing to too many things and "distractions from other guys".........
i miss u badly.......
hope we will meet soon and get out connection and bond back.........

too nervous lead to a consolation prize!!!!!!!

i got into finals!!!!!
i had no time to practise any new songs......so i picked back the song that help me get through the audition!!!!!!
i was singing well even during rehearsals that i can feel everyone think that i will win the mae idol title!!!!!
but when it was finally my turn to sing............i let nervousness got better of me...............i lost all my confidence on stage!!!!!!!!!!!
i lost the competition!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
disapppointed as i was then......i cursed all those who got second............and even the first.....and worse..even the emcee................
what gotten into me????? i was a sole loser that day though i forced a smile everywhere i go!!! but i wasn't feeling happy at all!!!!! only have joanna and raymond by my side to console me.......where are the rest????????.......all were dumbfounded and try not to say things that might hurt me.......that was even more hurting lo............haiz

i learnt a precious lesson from this competition!!!!!!!
i shouldn't be so nervous at all!!!!!!!!!! don't worth it!!!!!!!! haiz......
anyway its over.........just hope i could get over it fast and lead back a peaceful and cheerful life again!!!!!!!! hope all the friends who voted for me are not disappointed by my performance on stage...........if not the lousier i will feel.............hiaz.............

MAE IDOL

i joined the MAE IDOL on first day of school after guohan sms me and persuaded me to join!
went to the audition 3 days later after registration.
i made it to the qualifying round!!!!
voting is the only means to get to final...
i asked all those i know to vote for me...pester them like i so into getting a title!!!!! hahahaa
finally after 3 days of voting.......results as to who get into finals is out!!
i got in!!!!! yeah!!!!!!!
given less than a day to do my preparation.......i decided to sing the same song.................
as to what will be the outcome..............i hope to win...but shouldn't let it affect my mood as it will only cause more anxiety which will affect my singing!!!!
i will try my best!!!!!!!!!!!