something i realised about myself~

Its really nice to have him by my side..... especially when there is a shoulder to lie on when i am tired~
i began to feel that my low self esteem is still working within me...
more often i will feel i am not good enough....
there is other prettier gals around...
nicer character gals around...
but he always have his reassurance to let me know i shouldnt think this way...
the insecurity in the relationship doesn't come from him...but from myself...
i know i am not relying overly on him.... i know i can be independent when i need to....
i know he trust me when i am with other guys........
but its not that i dun trust him when he is with other gals..i just don't feel good not because i am possessive...perhaps is due to the low esteem....
watever it is....i hope to be more confident so that i will worry less and be much happier.....and then we both can enjoy each other's company in a way that is loving,confident and lively!

cruise holiday to redang!

yeah!! I am finally going to take a cruise le!! thx dear for asking me to go!!
i am going with dear, qx and ching...so exciting!! somemore we are going to redang...an island supposedly to be nice to play wan bah... setting off on 2 may...2 days after last paper...haha...
after walking around at NATAS fair yesterday...i realised there is still so many places i want to go!!! i want to go hongkong, taiwan, japan, europe and many many places!! also ting they all might be going to genting..feel like joining the big group of them for more fun and laughter...but dear doesn't seem to be very willing to go...but the more excited i get for the outing..the more dear ignores me....haha....cos he "buay lim chu"..got a gf who want to go expensive places and staying in resorts that provide a suite at 16000 baht!!! but on a serious tone...i just enjoy seeing dear's "buay lim chu" face by telling him i want to go there and there..but the thing is...where do i get the money to save?? haha...i must be dreaming....somemore..i feel like going to learn driving together with dear...to give him motivation and also to get the fun of knowing how to drive....then i will be more high class liao!!
haha....think so much!! haha...
ok la..shall end here....wanna go explore what kind of clothes to bring to redang and wear...but surely not bikini!!! haha...

something new in life~

16 march~ a day to remember~a day where i set 3 "difficult" questions~a day when he is panicked that he couldn't answer the questions correctly~a day when he wears perfume over a "lost form" beach wear~a day when i wear a long skirt with perfume that he didn't detect~a day that we supposed to go vivo to buy shoes from royal sporting house and there is no such shop at all~ a day when he suddenly become so generous~a day i realised that i can only crack lame jokes in front of him~a day when we go see sun set~a day when i took more than 2 hours to say yes~a day when we took the sentosa express to tanjung beach KM8~a day when i was scare stiff by the forest natural music~a day when he held my sweaty palms tight~a day when we sit under the sun to talk about our past~a day i didn't spent a cent~a day he feels is right~a day when we took a photo together using a water bottle as support~a day when purple tram plays an important role in our story~a day where we get to keep the sentosa express ticket with THE DATE on it~a day i tried something i been eyeing and end up i don't look good with it at all~a day when i tried my vivi shoes again and it also don't look good~a day when i set my eyes on a skirt that cost $95 in river island~a day when he told me i got good taste for guys fashion~a day when we walk into the sea water with our flip flops~a day that i reveal the bad habit of peeling my fingers~a day when he attempt to stop me from my bad habit~a day i received no flowers~a day i received no present~a day he promised to learn to drive within a year~a day which is our first date~a day when we are sitting among couples in a couple crowded place facing the sea,facing sentosa from vivo~a day he said he is a bad liar~a day i hope he is true~a day i hope to be more confident with myself~a day when i decided to ask him to trick our friends that we are not together~a day when he never send me home after the date~a day i told him i am independent~a day when i send the first sms to him with my new hp~a day that is special only to both of us~a day that is not easy to come by~a day the angel found us~a day to remember~ & the story goes on........................................................................

sang ktv after quiz at chevrons~

believe it anot...i actually went out on an occasion called " after quiz rewarding concerting ktv"...
i didnt think about how i will fare for the quiz...i only know i was hungry and wanted to leave asap...but everyone was still discussing it..dunno why....
finally got my 2 savoury cha siew bao.... oh btw...i am super broke this week...less $10 to spend is really a big deal...but how am i supposed to get that 10 bucks back?? haiz....
went to chevrons to sing ktv at a much cheaper rate than k box..... not bad not bad that place..just that everyone is not very happy.... cos of the not so fantastic sound system...i am ok with it...it doesnt spoil much of my mood...so i enjoyed myself eventually.....
thereafter we actually went for supper...gosh......we ate and chatted till wee hours....i reached back hall at 230am!!! this after quiz rewards seems to be too rewarding already!! haha...
had a chance to hear songs sang by "Wee wee"...this person is called noise....and noise is him...haha...when he is around..there is always noise...but when he is singing...i hear music....but haha..i realised something ..... of him....he like to poke ppl...haha...
the topic chatted at the mac was about age to get marry and many other related stuffs...but i was too tired( due to the contaminated with tea plain water) to contirbute..so just listen to what the rest got to say....oh yah...i also felt honor to be a zhi ji.... wahaha....
well...i am not too interested into marriage stuffs and about what age to marry....simply let everything be natural........looks like i am really a nun to be...cos the old me used to be very interested to talk about what age to marry, give birth, own family...CAR..... but now...
being single has given a great deal of freedom and i am so enjoying it!!! in fact i am afraid to be falling into something not meant to be...so i decided to stay out of picture to make observations..... but at the same also be careful....i used to think guys always have good relationship among themselves with some kind of "brotherhood" ruling them...but these days this impression was worsen..i realised that guys do have problems among each other too.... haha...so all the while i been too biased le...so guys and gals are after all still equal.....hahahhahaha
life now is great....i want to keep it status quo.... :)