this week is just too draggy!!

i can't believe time to go slower than this week!!! i cant stand the time in the office....
hate the sight of that idiot!! haiz...why am i using such vulgairites?? haiz...cos he tested too much of my patience........rush rush me to complete his project!! then i do till i skipped lunch and do free OT for him...............and he never once say thanks...forget abt that...its the real world...boss wun say thanks wan!! cos they are simply assholes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat's worst!!!!!!! he actually got the cheek to ask me if i have check thro the documents whether there are mistakes anot??? if anything goes wrong..its my fault..then i will get another round of insults from him again!!!!!!! he is better locked up in a place where ppl see him..they will kick, scold, spit and give him shit to eat!!!!!!


enough of my complains!
love story time..........
haha....i asked him out for dinner on monday....so happy...he agreed so swiftly........haha...
we had a good talk......even talked about going to china for holiday during dec..wonder if its true..but nvm la...at least i can drool about it.......haha....
i kinda miss him so much on tuesday........wanted to ask him out..but i am stopped by qx...he told me not to be obvious.....so i heed his advice..but i miss him terribly till now!! haha....
i hope things to turn out well bah.......
i hope time to go faster..i hope things to progress.....i hope to go china.......i hope for freedom...i hope to live happily always!!! i am hoping and waiting....waiting and hoping..........hoping and waiting..........haha..........life goes on..................................

i am so lazy........

i need someone to motivate me to exercise!!!!
at this rate i am going.....i am going to be FAT real soon!!!!!!!!!
i kinda think about him a little.....but i cannot like that la.......alamak..........
i must control.........i cannot sms him!!! hahahaha.........are u wondering who he is?? well...not going to share it here!!!!!!!!! :P
i am so bored.............monday is coming soon.......argh!!!!!!!

i have a new target..

today i went out with yukai, elton, yuanfeng, kah ming and josephus..........
these 5 guys are my EID mates....and basically i am the only gal in my group who clicks with them.........
i enjoy their company...cos they are always full of fun and laughter....
we went to k box.... its the first time i hear elton sing...not so bad....
today's session...we sang some hokkien songs and some really killer songs...but its out for fun and laughter........
i kinda realised..i got a feeling for someone among them...........i cant tell who...i learnt my lesson from the past experience..........just in case he also happen to know my blog which i dunno he knows and he find out that i like him by reading my blog..i done wrong once....nv to make the wrong move again!!!!!!!!!!!
but i am not sure if my feeling is right...perhaps is a wrong one again.........do i like him? the rest were like pushing us together........somehow i can sense something's not right... but the thing is... are they pushing us together because i am more close to him?? or that he actually told them he interested in me and they are helping us?? haha..i dunno la....but i guess...perhaps i should let things be natural bah....wat a bored saturday nite..........haiz...........

sorted out some thoughts.

so many things happened and gone...
so many things to ponder about..
so many things to cry about..
so many things to worry about...
so many so many to so many about..
what am i talking? well well..i am not too sure la........... i am just bored..and tired...
its when i am at this state that i sort my thoughts out fast..........
i am setting a deadline to "pursuing happiness"....and that is 31st dec...
if after this date..i am still single...so be it...i will stop all my activeness in "pursuing" le..i will become dormant...
i am about to go through the biggest change in my image pretty soon...
i want to have a new hair cut...i want to put on make up when i go out with friends..i want to have a better dress sense...i want to be more confident and charming...

i enjoyed the ecp outing

luckily i reoganise the ecp outing!! if not how will i enjoy the sea breeze and my all time favourite sports...kayaking!!!!!!!!!!
actually...its the first time i kayak............cos i usually canoe.........
wat's the difference? kayak is baring ur legs....canoe is cover half way.........
aiya..no time to blog le...be back other time...

another day has passed!!

yup....i enjoy days passed by fast....esp when it is nearing weekend!!!!
i know i already enjoy this sort of lifestyle...weekend means no worries....just play hard....
but at the back of my mind...i felt guilty for playing so hard during weekday and not working too hard during weekdays in the office...i am always counting down for 6pm to come...haiz...is everyone also like that??? or is it just me...so lazy and unprofessional?? haha......
well..i am so glad lixia came to find me and have lunch with me......i am so fortunate to have such a great gal friend........really luv her..........
day by day...i realised friends are important..really important.....
more or less...i already got over the sad issue..........i am strong wad........
so i am more than ready to start all over again for another adventurous "love quest"..or finding a new fertile land to "dig holes"...haha.......
when i looked back on the things i had done for him.......it doesn't seem as silly as i initially thought.....cos right from the start..before i like him.....i already make it clear that i need someone to talk to me everyday after work.......and that is his job.....wahahahhaha....... so falling for him is another issue which i perhaps got confused..........he is a habit to me more than a feeling bah....i can't stand the feeling of not clicking him cos i am so used to talking to him..not cos i miss his talking.......haha........so this is something i sort out.......and i am glad that i realised it......
nevertheless...i hope he and i will continue to be friends..........
i am looking forward for a new adventure!! haha.......
jojo is no longer sad!! jojo is strong again....jojo luv her friends!! cheers for the fact that i am alive!!

a new lease of life!

well...its painful to know the truth...and worse is being the last one to know...but at least i know...
i will not brood over it and lost a friend...........
i just realised....whenever i am in deep thoughts.........tzehau will come into my mind.......always can't forget his facial expression the very first time we had lunch at nie canteen...he ate a super psicy laksa...but still act strong in front of me....so cute...when i am the most down...he is there to walk around the whole ntu with me........where are u now...tzehau...........must be busy with school work rite......haiz....
haha..am i filming drama here?? just felt sad for a day..the next day realise..there is someone who is holding such awkward position in your heart...wassup with u jojo?????? haha...
that's me la...i get over things fast..that's why ppl say i desperate....haha....eh..no link hor...aiyah..anyhow la....anyway.......i just want to live happily now le........i dun wan to be bother by any qin qin ai ai for the time being............ life is still as usual.........life goes on...routine is still routine....time to sleep................zzzzzzzzzzz

though it hurts..i am willing to let go..

as the sayings goes..... its better to have one more friend than one more enemy..though dm and i will not become enemies or wat.......but if i continue to hold feelings and hopes for him..something might just screw up our friendship....
since i already knew he has a gal in mind...i should be da fang enough to let go and remain as friends with him........though i must say..it hurts everytime i need to take a step further from the guy i like...but it surely will gain me a good guy friend just like what happen between me and wy...he has a gal in mind too...that hurt me quite a bit for sometime...but i eventually got over it and we are now talking like we are good friends sharing experiences and stories as and when we are free..... so i am sure dm and i could become like that too....so i wouldnt want to put a strain on our friendship..just because i like him....maybe the one is still out there in a search for me.....and the impatient me just keep on running and catching anyone who is in my sight..that's desperate i guess...haha...well..i know i can let go and really let go..cos i have always been strong...and i know one fine day when the right one comes along..i will be very xing fu le....
now i doing some observations......on someone whom i actually shouldnt even think about...but anyway its just a thought...i am not too serious into it...cos i hate to get myself into spiral all over again..........like teck always say...i like to dig holes and fall into them.....that has become a habit...i shouldn't be digging holes anymore!!! i know its not easy...but i must be able to overcome the desperate me and live my life in the most meaningful way possible!! being single...i can go out with anyone and feel non restricted....so i should really enjoy all the moments i spend with friends...........friends today stand a more important positions le..................i used to think friends come and go...so i wouldnt give them any high positions in my mind and heart...but after so many things that happened...i knew all my friends are good to me...so i should always cherish them.............i have grown up abit again le...yeah....
this IA period is really a good time to grow!! i become more generous with my money but at the same time........please ah...my dear beloved friends...dun always extort me la........i am not as rich as you all think...i need to save up to pay for my holidays trips, hall fees, contact lens, cosmetics, clothes, dating,food,and when a new semester start..all these savings which i have will become my monthly allowance..so if i dun save now...i will die of hunger when school starts....haha.....
i don't place any friends in any categories......i placed them all the same....haha...so i actually spread my secrets around......oopss....well its just me...i can't hold my own secrets........i can't help it....though its not a big change..i know i have changed in some ways le.........
i am more willing to spend these days...............i am more willing to open up to my friends.... i understand my family more....... i get to realise new things about myself once in a while........i love and enjoy the growing process......i love myself more now than last time le.....i am glad of such changes....cheers for the fact that i am still alive!! (a quote from zhenxian of the show "my name is samsoon") thank you to my family!!!
thank you to my friends...always there for me when i am down........thanks for willing to listen my secrets all the time........its repetitive i know...but u all still bother to listen which i really appreciate it deeply...haha.....
cheers to a new lease of life!!!

project superstar

yes...i went to queue early in the morning with a very very kind gal..huiching!!!!!!!!
out of so many friends i have...........none of them wants to wake up early or sacrifice part of their schedule for me..........except huiching who bothers to meet me to go kbox and choose songs and accompany me to go queue........wat a nice gal friend i have!!!
well...i was kicked out......its my fault...no...looks may be important but professionalism also very important!! i forget my lyrics.............again!!!!!!!!! haha...i must have let myself down and my friends disappointed!! i didn't mean it..i was just too nervous when the gal before me actually took more than ten minutes!!!
nevertheless...i wasn't really upset cos xiaopang came to find and support me after my audition though...but i was very glad that i still have friends who cares...subsequently ting..cecilia...yukai..smsed me to tell me not to feel disheartened and stuffs...i already feel very happy le!!
also..i nearly get to go up stage to sing le....a mini concert..but kinda too bad la...no choice...no fate with the public stage yet bah...
it was a though not so memorable...but also something unforgetable la...from the queueing to registering to waiting to auditioning....
i found out a hurting heart news....
well...."the who cousin"...already have someone in mind.....and they are already in an ai mei stage!! so i really should step out and look forward in life in search for better guys le..........i must protect myself!! i must!!
then we went bowling...wow...xiaopang was great bowler...uncle also..though he keep saying he tai gou de....who will believe sia...haha....qixiang seems more tai gou lo....school team still got face to send bowling ball into the drain...for me.. i think my bowling skills slightly improved! huiching..guess u are just tired ya....see ur face sian sian....
it has been an enjoyable saturday!! thanks for my friends who were there to support me morally and physically!! esp huiching who wake up so early for my sake!! so touched!!
i must determined to forget and remove the habit of msning him every nite!!

make over or not?

i am wondering...so wondering...
every of my friends are asking me to go for a make over...
i know they dun mean i am ugly nor hideous looking...
i know i must do something to my dress sense...my face...and also my hair......
should i make a new specs or should i get contacts?
well well.... i needed more solid and sincere advice.....
though superstar is a good motivation to make me spend a bomb to make over...but i am still hesitant..cos i am not sure if eventually i will really be there for the audition anot...
well well..i am lazy to type here le,....
my friends complain me that my blog is too negative le.............
i shall try to be more positive yea....hahaha...
and i will refrain from mentioning dm anymore too....