is honesty really the best policy?!

i don't enjoy people who lie and so i tried my best to be honest all the time...
but i lied to teh for over a year and nearly lied to him this v-day again..
but i couldn't let myself pass this that i decided to email him about the lie...
thereafter there is no response from him...
i am deeply saddened...perhaps being honest is not always the best policy....
heard of thing called a beautiful lie....but i doubt the cookie thingy is a beautiful enough lie...
in any case..i know i have disappointed teh and made him feel disgusted about me le....
i felt so sorry.....wish i didnt lie to him right from the start...haizzzz....
for now...i am just too tired....
too tired with liking someone and imaging stuffs to do with the like too...
just want to be a good gal and that will be enough....

another entry of the same old stuffs....

here it goes again.......
i guessed i should and must put a stop to the "pairing up" game....
i am simply not up to it....
and that i should not let it affect me anymore....
luckily last nite i have a good friend to tell me to be cautious in this "pairing up game"...
its then i realised that i sinked in a little..lucky i am strong and that the good friend's concern pull me back to level ground just in time....
though the desperate angel is still working hard on me.....my enlightened angel inside me is also working very hard to help me get off these troubles off my back....
anyway....i seriously think that person don't fit into my criteria at all....so why do i bother to drop into the hole right????? yeah!!
lucky this time i nv put feelings in first....
i should and must put my energies in my family, friends and health and studies..... there is just no time to think about this nonsense issue anymore....
i think this time i really got to give teh up le....
for ux....perhaps a few months are needed for anything to happen or not happen.... i am not anticipating.....
end of nonsense for 2007!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

valentine day....

14 FEb 2007..a day i hope will not come so fast....
but it came and go le....
i got morning lesson....dress up abit to class just to make myself feel better....
wasn't expecting any present from anyone at all...after all the bad and good experience...its about time to stop thinking about "LOVE"....THE MOST HURTFUL WORD IN THE DICTIONARY..
after my tutorial classes...i met yang,jeck and kc...i got a pink rose from there..so qweet of them..haha...but its within my expectiation when kc smsed saying that they got things for me..haha..
thereafter met up with ting, yiwei, yonghua,xiaozhe and william for lunch....at the quad..didnt really want to go there cos i am so broke le...but kinda no choice...
after lunch carry on for lecture..sounds like its a routine life in the v-day ya...haha...yeah man..what's the big deal!!
then finally......school end for the day....i planned to study in the library de....but in the end got pull to go out...so i decided to go out and chill abit...
now i am slacking away...blogging away again....oh gosh!!! can't believe it!!! i got tonees of tutorial piling up...and i still got time to blog...sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
will someone be kind enough to pull me to study?????????? hahahahah

just too bad.....

this is yet but another sad story and i writing...to those who know my whole story...yes...i have a conclusion already..for those who wish to continue reading up on the story that i said will continue..i am sorry to say...there is no more to it....
meaning to say...tonight has been a disappointing experience..i have knock one more wall and dropped into a deeper hole once again...i mistook someone's intention on me....
i shouldnt have talked about him to anyone at all...haiz...now that the spell is working...
everything work the wrong way again....
he msned me...i was so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally after a long long time.....but to my disappointment..he just want to find out why i messaged him the other day...he mentioned nothing about us...perhaps i seriously think too much............who am i to expect someone like him to fall for me.....i am sorry to myself for i have break a promise to myself...how am i ever to forgive myself??????????? i cant write anymore..i am too depressed......spell works...love's off.... heart's dead....

a new hairstyle

today i went to kimage for a hair cut...i like it....but its kinda expensive...
though my hair length more or less is the same...the style is slightly different..i got a different parting and a straightened hair done... looks better without my glasses....if monday i am not lazy..i shall wear contact lens to school...if not i will stick to my specs....
recently i got a new story to share....erm... to be continued la... look forward to my new hairstyle la... :P